You're Gonna Miss This

So I'll admit that I can get into a funk sometimes and let that color the world around me. I'm not sure if it is the change in "career", the pregnancy or the exhaustion of chasing after our little girl but I had been having a tough week. I decided to do something about it so I finally packed Hazel up, got Marlee ready and we took a walk in the beautiful sunshine to the park right around the corner. Hazel and I had fun playing in the grass, walking around and she really liked the swing. It was just what I needed to help lift my mood and make me realize that there is so much around me to enjoy.

I decided to go to the park again yesterday, only this time Hazel and I were the only ones there. She played a little but was getting sleepy so I sat down on the bench with her, wrapped her blanket around her and rocked her to sleep as I looked out across the playground to the elementary school next door. As I watched the kids running around during their recess it made me realize that before I know it Hazel will be one of those kids too. I looked down at her in my arms fast asleep and immediately thought of these song lyrics:

You're gonna miss this

You're gonna want this back

You're gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast

These are some good times

So take a good look around

You may not know it now

But you're gonna miss this

Of course, before I knew it I was sitting there crying but I think it was a good moment for me. It definitely helped me to feel better about deciding to take a break from my job (which had been my identity for quite some time) and instead to pause and enjoy what I have before me. Later that night, Hazel was up for over an hour and did not want to be put down in her crib. I got her to sleep no problem over five times but everytime I set her down, she would wake up. I finally brought her into our room and she didn't even want to sleep inbetween Marshall and I, she only wanted to sleep tucked under my arm and right up against me. Tired from a long day I once again found myself thinking... You're gonna miss this and it couldn't be more true.

Loving the swing

Going for a stroll